| September 16, 2007................. is a box filled with bloody carcasses a bad wedding gift? wheres the karma that's supposed to happen??? uggghhh...... i wish them a lifetime of lies and a bundle of deceit after. disgusting. /spit |
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| the hands of an old clock the hands quiver.... as if they are unsure if they should move on.. unsure if they should press forward.. into time.. into the future.. into the unknown... it feels as if they are fighting to go backwards... against time.. not wanting to go... not this soon.. not just yet.. ... but they have no choice. without mercy.. time flies... n as the dutiful hands of this clock.... they must go on. but.. do i... have to? 7/15/06 |
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| i thought i knew exactly which side of his face i'd slap, thought i knew exactly what i was going to say, thought i knew exactly how i was going to walk away afterwards w/ my head held up high and never looking back..... but i failed. i froze... i got nervous.. i got sad... i cried.. i asked why.. i asked how.. why.. and why again...... i wanted to talk.. but i forgot what i wanted to say.. i forgot to be angry... i forgot to be proud.. i forgot what he did to me... i forgot to never feel for him again.. i forgot everything. i miss him so much, i miss the way we were.. i miss being happy..... why? why does it have to be so hard? why cant he explain? why cant i feel better? what else do i want? sorry wasn't enough.. but what else is there left to hear? i dont knwo where i should be, how i should be, how i should feel, what i should do...to get rid of all these feelings.. i just want it to all go away. |
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| someone sent me this blog today... was good.... but sad at the same time. *sigh* http://stephanieklein.blogs.com/greek_tragedy/2005/05/bowling_for_sou.html
one day. i'll forget all abt it one day.
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And I almost had you
But I guess that doesn't cut it
Almost had you
And I didn't even know it
You kept me guessing and now I'm destined
to spend my time missing you
I almost wish you would've loved me too |
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